RYAN

School - Digital World

Name Ryan Lynch Gray

Age 16

Birthday 10/29/03

Gender cis male (he/him)

Orientation straight

Height 5'10"

Partner Dare

Personality

To an outside perspective, it seems like Ryan is a very angry, rageful person, but that’s the furthest thing from the truth. His hate-filled energy isn’t actually hatred; he just has a hard time expressing his emotions, and rather than making an attempt, he prefers to shut himself out from others. Anger is the only emotion that he’s used to showing, and in turn, everything else he feels is shoved deep down inside, to be forgotten about and never reflected on. He feels every emotion under the rainbow, but to anyone who isn’t a mind reader, that’s a very hard thing to discern about him, and Ryan himself doesn’t seem to be making any attempt to correct their perception.

Key word being seem. Ryan would love to be able to show others that he is much more than they think he is, but when a large enough group of people believe something that sounds true enough, it can be hard to change their minds - and this particular belief would be very hard to dispute, given Ryan’s snappishness and rough nature. He’s not mean, but he is quite abrasive and a bit too brutally honest at times. He can be pushy, too, oftentimes provoking people just to get a reaction out of them - not maliciously, but rather as a way to see how they’ll react and get to know them. As someone who hates being asked questions about themself, Ryan prefers to elicit genuine reactions from them, as he believes that is the best way to understand someone’s character. Another firm belief of his is that there is always more to someone than meets the eye. He knows it firsthand, and it’s the one life lesson that’s stuck with him throughout his entire life.

It takes a lot to break through Ryan’s tough exterior, and very few have ever dared to try it. Those who have, however, struggle for a long time to get him to open up, and when he finally does, everything clicks into place. He’s very open and honest with those he trusts, and will tell them the truth to any question they ask him. These few people who he does consider close enough to be honest with will quickly discover one thing about him: Ryan nothing at all how most people believe him to be. Put in the right situation with the right people, he can be incredibly gentle and kind hearted, listening intently to others and supporting them the best he can. At his core, Ryan is a complex person with an aversion to opening up, a problem with anger issues, and a very deep desire to show people that he is not what they think he is.

About

Ryan’s home life is complicated. On the surface, it seems perfectly normal - he’s got a mom and a dad, a younger brother, they live in a decently sized house, they don’t have any pets because his dad’s allergic - but when you dig deeper, issues begin to arise. His parents both work, but his mom is gone more often than she’s around, as she’s a nurse who works at the local hospital. His dad has some sort of data management job, and he’s able to work from home, which is honestly worse than if he were out of the house.

This is because his father is, simply put, not a good father. Or human being in general, really. He’s been controlling and aggressive all Ryan’s life, and it’s ended up getting drilled into his head that that’s how he should be, too. His younger brother Devon is even more susceptible to this than Ryan ever was, and he does his best to protect him. He’s quick to take the brunt of their father’s anger whenever Devon’s the target, and despite Ryan’s struggle to express any emotion other than anger, he tries to let Devon - and his mom - know that he loves them, in his own way. Whether he’s successful in that is up to debate.