MIGUEL

School - Digital World

Name Miguel Carmelo Marquis Sandoval

Age 15

Birthday 06/03/03

Gender cis male (he/him)

Orientation asexual

Height 5'3"

Partner Flip

Personality

Miguel is quiet and shy, sticking to himself at every possible moment and rarely speaking up. He hates meeting new people, talking to strangers, having company over - basically anything that requires social interaction or new settings is a no-go for him. It’s possible for him to slowly open up to these prospects through prolonged exposure, but he’s going to hate every minute of it, and it’s even worse when someone tries to force him to get through it. He’s anxious, scared witless, and really just wants to go home. …Okay, there’s more to him than that, but he rarely lets anyone know that - or more like others rarely bother to find out for themselves, deterred by his silent nature and seeming inability to be social. It’s partly due to this that he has such difficulties in new situations, out of fear that no one around will understand him or be willing to help him when he needs it.

His reluctance to open up to others is largely in part to his severe anxiety, something he’s struggled with practically all his life and has never figured out how to treat or work around. Though most of the time it’s nothing but a hindrance - incessant worrying and constant stress are not good for one’s mental state - there are times where it comes in handy. Miguel is slow to fully trust others, preferring to watch them for a while before making a judgment as to whether or not they’re reliable and honest, which has saved him a lot of grief in the past. His anxiety has granted him a knack for observing others’ mannerisms, which allows him to know others on a far deeper level than they’d normally want him to, memorizing their speaking and thinking patterns better than most people. He rarely comments on it unless he believes it to be absolutely necessary, afraid of making a mountain out of a molehill or driving anyone away, so he keeps it tucked away in his ever-running brain, ready for whenever it’ll be useful.

Above all, Miguel does not want to hurt anyone - he truly believes that most people are good at heart, and feels very strongly about trying to find non-violent solutions to problems. It’s just that he himself is bad at proposing those solutions or even acting on them, preferring to let those around him figure it out while he shyly guides them in the right direction, usually through shutting down their “bad” suggestions rather than proposing his own “good” ones. He can be quite resolute when he needs to be, and will speak up and offer his own insight in dire situations, but these instances are few and far between. Regardless, he is very perceptive, thinking more than he speaks, and has some really great thoughts and ideas. It would just be so much easier for everyone if he actually shared them from time to time.

About

For his whole life, Miguel has struggled with anxiety. Neither he nor his parents knew the word for it when he was younger, and wrote it off as him just being shy, especially when he started school. As he got older, they continued to see it as such, even when he reached the age where he should have gotten used to being around other people. Things only got worse when other kids started to bully him for his social awkwardness, as kids do. Even then, his parents didn’t think anything was too out of the ordinary, and Miguel just had to deal with it. Nowadays, he knows he has anxiety, but doesn’t bother bringing it up at home.

Regardless, he’s very close to his parents, especially his mother. When he was younger, he could cling to her wherever they went, even when other kids his age at whatever gathering they were at were off playing, and preferred to stay by her side and read or play on his own. As he’s gotten older, he’s managed to learn to function when away from her, but he’ll always prefer to be near her when possible. He loves his father and little sister Andrea as well, but his mother was the one who raised him, and sometimes he wishes he could be a little kid again, when all he had to worry about was getting through a day of kindergarten.